Maybe I'm doing this wrong.
I don't want to be in the public eye. I make a fuss about the media taking pictures of me and my husband. I get angry. I just want to be left alone and have a normal life. I want movie nights and cooking stuff and going to fite club and shopping and all that.
But I have a pet dragon. I got drunk and danced around in the chocolate fountain in my back garden two days ago. My husband flipped our next-door-neighbour's car over - not that he didn't deserve it, but still. And then there's the whole damn thing with Ali and the fite club. I've hired one of my best friends to be my bodyguard, for fuck's sake! That's not normal and quiet at all.
I need to think about what I want, I guess. Do I want to be a big famous billionaire, or do I want to not raise a ruckus and get the nice private life I want? I can't have both, clearly. So, what do I do?
Erebus, if you're reading this, come see me. We need to talk about this.
E-erm, I just stumbled across your blog and all... Heard rumors of it floating around thanks to the media.... hope you don't mind a stranger being here.
ReplyDeleteI think this is something that...well...you might have to think about on your own. One thing to know is that... Gah, how can I say this... With publicity, you're going to get... a lot of negative things said about you, rather than the good. My mom tells me that "Complaints and terrible stories sell well" and, um, I guess its true. I kind of skim through the tabloids and notice that there are hardly any good things people say about celebreties.
One other thing that people say... is that money and publicity doesn't exactly equal happiness. I dunno about that one. Maybe it could be the case for you?
I don't know, I'm only 16 and commenting on a blog of a person I know from the media. So sorry to bother you. I hope you can find a solution to all of this.
I guess... that helps somewhat. And you posting here is fine. As long as you don't act like a jerk, you can stay.
DeleteWhat qualifies as being a jerk is up to me of course, but you're defnitely not it. :)
You... you said you WANT a quiet private life, right? Shouldn't the answer be obvious then?
ReplyDeleteBut then I go do stupid things like get in fights or get drunk and uuuugggh. And the worst part is I LIKE living it up, because why the fuck not? If it feels good, do it! Except sometimes I get into trouble for it, and then it's not so fun.
DeleteI should have learnt this lesson when I was a kid.
wElL iSn'T tHiS wHoLe InTeRnEt ThInG a MoThErFuCkInG mIrAcLe. LoOkS lIkE i FoUnD yOuR cHaTtErPaN jUsT iN tImE To KiCk SoMe WiCkEd AdViCe.
ReplyDeleteChIcA, yOu GoTtA uNdErStAnD aLl Up In YoUr HeArT aNd YoUr ThInKpAn tHaT tHeRe'S a MoThErFuCkInG MiDdLe GrOuNd BeTwEeN sItTiNg In YoUr HiVe LiKe A gRuB aNd WhOoPiNg LiKe ThE dArK cArNiVaL iN fUlL pErIgReE sWiNg! ThErE's A fInE lItTlE hApPy PlAcE sOmEwHeRe In ThE mIDdLe Of ThAt, AnD yOu GoTtA gO fInD iT aNd SiT tHeRe, aLl WaRm AnD sNuG lIkE a HoPbEaSt In It'S hIdEy HoLe. YoU dIg? JuSt GoTtA fInD tHaT hApPy PlAcE, AnD eVeRyThInG wIlL bE mOtHeRfUcKiNg MiRaCuLoUs.
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I know how it is, Amanda. There are so many times I look back on how things are and wonder if I'm really happy with it all. And there are so many other times I think about my life before and wonder how many things I'd do differently if I knew how they'd turn out. Don't let the tabloids and the scum bully you around, though. They're the underbelly of society: they don't mater for crap.
ReplyDeleteI know this sounds cliche as hell, but just follow your heart. You know it can't lead you wrong.
Zeph's on the right track. You've been given a very unique set of gifts, Amanda, and you have some one-of-a-kind pals and a husband like no other. Don't let a bunch of people you don't know and won't talk to get you down.
DeleteWhat I don't get is why on earth you're even being bothered. I mean, yeah, pet dragon. Big fucking deal, there's a TALKING DRAGON IN A TOP HAT AND MONOCLE in the same goddamn city. This is the same place where a four-armed psychic elephant riding a giant iguana fought a sunglasses-wearing megaturtle and a big armadillo who could control ghosts only for them all to lose to an army of lobster robots. Why a couple of rich space marines warrants anything beyond a paragraph in the local section is beyond me.
Don't have much time to type this, but I will say this:
ReplyDeleteWant to live it up, but also want to live it peacefully? That could be . . . arranged. At a cost, but arranged nonetheless.
This message will self-destruct five minutes after you read it. Or it WOULD if I knew a damn thing about these computers.
Computers aren't so difficult, pal. You just gotta take it a bit at a time. Generally I find something new each day. For instance, today I found out my computer has Solitaire built in! I have problems holding playing cards so I appreciate this virtual version.
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